Thank You Candy-Bar Angel

There I was alone fighting my secret Battle with depression… Several words, incidents and emotions haunted me that neither could I Express nor could I Suppress…

It was a feeling like standing on the top of the cliff on the edge, neither having guts to fall and the same time not wanting to  a U-turn or get down.. So I stood there in the scorching heat at 12 p.m. where sun was showering its tantamount heat and yet caught in the arms of cold with my legs shaking and body shivering.. This is how I exactly felt every moment..

I felt a void inside…I felt my life was very much like Black hole in the galaxy .. Devoided completely of light and yet very deep..At times, I would feel, I wish I could grab a stranger’s hand, drag her to a bench and tell my catharsis.. But even when there were ears, I could not formulate a word..  Sometimes I felt like going to a vacant place and go and scream aloud and cry aloud whatever pain was there in my heart since a long time..

I know I have the most loving family and best set of friends and an angel…but then what had sent me to the cliff at the first place.. I felt like a baby parrot not caged, but feathers cut, limping and wounded.. The cuts I felt were so deep and hard that I doubted that would time be the healing for it..?? I wanted to fly high in the sky, reach the heights but I was not that talented to fly with broken wings. I was scared to even make a try to fly looking at the darkness of the abyss.. May be because when last time I was there I had an angel, that God had sent me, who grabbed my hand and assured that I could fly even with broken wings… May be that angel was missing..  May be that assurance was missing..

I thought of disappearing to a place since my thoughts were marred..Felt impetuously like going to a Wonderland where everything would be innocuous and copasetic..  Wanted to be Alice about whom I had  heard in my childhood  but Life is not a Fairy Tale…  And it ain’t very easy as it seems because it requires a very strong heart to give up on ur loved ones and disappear.. and I have a namby-pamby one.. My emotions had festered… I felt like a water lily left in the sun for long… Felt like a wilted leaf that hinges on to the twig with the last hope…

I tried to come down from the cliff and take a U-turn and water the wilted water-lily all over again..

I tried to look for the words but saw them fading away… I glowed a Torch into the dark corners of my room every night and dug down to the silt..  Looking for the alphabets that might have dropped or that might have been buried in emails or letters..

And there, Half-buried in the slime, I found them with a sound of chime…

Carefully, I dug out each letter out to the World only to discover that they spell out just one word..

And the word is W.R.I.T.E..

Finally I discovered the word and wrote today after ages..

However, today I am still on the cliff waiting for that lost assurance..and the hands that hold my finger and teach me to fly again..But at times I feel is it an illusion that am dreaming of or waiting of because an angel once taught me that neediness is over- dependency .. Make urself so strong and equipped to never get into a downhill situation..

When I was a kid, I used to fall sick frequently and it was a normal routine for my parents to travel back and forth to the hospital and even today the story remains the same.. *embarrassed*

There was an episode where I had to be given an injection on my back and of course being a kid I was terribly afraid of that long syringe and even today the story remains the same. Before the doctor used to  get his needles ready, he used to start a simple conversation such as ''What's your name?''  and all the personal details that we fill up as personal details today in any form… and then he jumped to '' what you wanted to be when you grow up?''

While I was there, having a silent war on my mind whether to answer Doctor or Lawyer or Teacher, he was already done with that shot on my back. Then, all that followed was a complete silence except for that 'Ouch' sound from my mouth.

Today when I think about it, I wonder how carefully he distracted me from the pain by diverting my thoughts to wander somewhere else. Of course before I left the room, he gave me some candy bars that's more than enough to take away all the pain in the world.

 The point is I don't remember the doctor's face or his name. I don't even remember how painful the OUCH was, but till today I can never forget those candies and the child-like grin on my face.

After 15 long years, An angel did the same thing in my life..No matter how much I was hurt .. No matter what all happened in Life.. And no matter what ups and downs came and went… She gave me those candies in form of her teachings… I don’t remember how she distracted from the pain.. I don’t remember even a single pain but all I remember is her teachings… because those are my most favourite candies at the moment.. That can heal any pain in the world..

I am totally concentrating on those candies and distracting myself from the pains and frustration and that doesn’t mean I am running away… Of course, I am still on the cliff but I have decided to sit cross legged on the floor of the cliff and concentrate on the breath taking view from here. This time I am set with a blanket and a tent. I'm not happy nor sad, I'm just contended and grateful for all the little things that I'm having right now especially the candies that my angel gives me.. I have complete faith in them that they will heal me and bring my child-like grin back..

I admit that my life wasn't shaping the way I want it to be, at times I wish I could hold the key to my own destiny. Perhaps, as the saying goes..'we cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand' would be appropriate to be made as a reference in my book called life. 

Who knows one day, maybe I will be able to forget the pain and all I could remember was those tiny small victories in the form of candy bars..

One more thing, you don't always get a chance to stand on top of a cliff ....balance urself and enjoy the view from there….with a cuppa coffee and a candy bar! 

P.S. Thank you God for the Candy-Bar Angel in my Life… Please Never let her drift away…!!

Passionate Eyes..!!

The Depth in these Eyes

Has the caliber to reach the Heights of the Skies..

They carry a Determined Vision..

Which no Human can ever Reason...

The way these Eyes Twinkle...

Makes escape any worry-full Wrinkle..

The Sight they have is beyond Imaginations..

The Life they have is beyond Limitations...

The Tenderness of the Care they Possess..

It means a more than a Mother's Caress...

The look in Anger - that's Stern...

Can make a Soul and Heart Burn..

The Love when showered through their Glint..

Words are not required, Eyes give a Hint..

These Eyes that carry lot of hidden Pain...

In the lonely moments, they Rain...

Still they are the Eyes of Determined Vision..

They have Experienced the Life with all the Precision and Passion...!!

Who gave Life to Whom?

P.S. - Dedicated to all the Mothers Who Once Preferred Daughters Over Guys and Specially who "Adopted" Daughters...

Chilly winter breeze and out for a jog
I saw her twirling around in the fog...
A small cute teddy glued by her side
But she seemed sooo lonely from my sight..

I felt to have seen her in my dreams..
And thought of having her at any cost..
Was she just a shadow I was chasing,
Or could she be a lil angel that I've lost..?

While she sat quietly on the bench giving me a pleading stare..
Lost in her own world playing with the bubbles in the air..
Papers signed and she was mine..
I felt the paradise on the earth when our hugs intervined..

People claimed that I gave her a new life...
But they were too blind to see that indeed I owe her my whole life

And now..
I have a house, but she'll make it home..
I have words, but she'll make it a tome
I am wealthy, but she'll make me rich
Just to a smile on my face, she goes an extra inch..

I am a woman and she'll make me mother..
Life will pass in this way, caring for each other..
Our lives were tiny buds, which have now fully bloomed..
Its really tough to say Who has given Life to Whom???????

P.P.S. - Any Answers Anyone??? Who gave life to whom?????

Parting is NOT a Sweet Sorrow

Has Anyone Ever Made a Silent Escape Outta ur Life… ??? Without Giving Any Explanation???

She stood there waiting…Shattered… Broken… She stood on the same crossroads for months thinking what went wrong??  She dint utter a word ever but her thoughts penned down…

What went wrong?? What just went wrong?? Why this sudden blow??? What made you do this??.. When a relation was/is built, 2 persons are involved.. then while breaking and walking away why only 1 decides..

You looked at me with your watering eyes that day… That’s when I felt that this was about to end…. I was frozen at that moment… My heart raced fast and my mind had a Hurricane of Thoughts… Worse than “Sandy in USA”…. I knew something was coming up that would make my heart sink and fragile…

But u dint say a word.. U just hugged me with all ur warmth and affection and let me go…!! I wanted to scream and tell you that pls don’t give up on me.. Don’t give up on anything for what u have hold on for so long..  But you walked away without even explaining me.. without even uttering a word to me.. without even letting me know.. Not even a last good bye…

You walked away and I could barely breathe… I turned around and fell on my knees….I am shivering as the truth is settling… That Ur Tomorrow has Nothing to Do with me.. Its Urs and Only Urs…!! I have no place in that.. not even a small microscopic…

I feel shattered.. I feel bitter.. I feel sad.. I feel hurt…These emotions come like a tidal wave.. One minute I am all OK.. Other minute it just hits me and sees me breakdown into yet another series of relentless tears… I cant eat and I cant sleep.. As I lay awake, I get lost in series of questions which I need to be answered… But instead .. Here I myself ask and myself answer all the possible multiple choices.. and also choose the best alternative as per my assumption and yet not satisfied…!!  The pain of watching you walk away without even a single word or the fact that you never even consider looking back has made me shatter… But still all I am concerned is r u ok????

Its so tough to accept that someone u knew thoroughly, have shared 24 hrs with.. is all gone in just a fraction of a second without uttering a word.. Was it not necessary for me to know???  Even if you would have told me the reason to go away ,I would have pleaded you to stay but then would have let you go coz all I desired was ur happiness.. Atleast that would have given me a feeling of contentment….instead of a betrayal… You had all the rights to move on and I respect that but wasn’t just informing a duty??? It wud have lessened my pain coz atleast I knew the reason… Atleast I had peace of mind… Atleast I wud not have passed countless sleepless nites finding of the answers of all the permutations and combinations of What, Why, Where, How???

You are already gone and I cant even see your shadow…  I thought u were with me all the time.. forever.. I miss everything about you every second…

The memories are like dew drops..Sinking and blending with my tears…

And My Heart is Now in Bits and Fears…

No more Expectations and No More Hopes

Coz I have untied all the Ropes…

All the doors are shut

As if my Wings you’ve Cut..

I am limping and wounded

Our memories are grounded

The cuts are deep and hard

For the walls there is no guard

Sand is slipping outta my hand..

Lost the moment for a band…

Wish we had together a Last Stance

As Life May not Give us a Second Chance

I m still standing at the same crossroads waiting for ur return.. I m picking up the pieces of pain..

I still aspire that you will come back..

You will heal this pain deep within my Heart.. Wipe the Tears that Fall from my Eyes.. And Glue the Pieces of my Glass-like Heart and Mend this all again…!!

I still hold those memories with tight-lipped silence.. As the breeze sweeps my hair, winter again takes me back with you. Flashes of your smile that made my eyes go small.. And with that innocence when you look at me, I let my heart change its rhythm just for you…!

However, although I m still wandering on the same crossroads with same thoughts every single second.. I am not paused in life.. I walk with you, I drive with you, I work with you.. I relive my Today with you…  Coz I know you..I know even you are not happy… then what made you do so??  We have had fought with one another many a times, but then we have patched up every time with much more affection than before..!!

This strong storming force of silence fills me with aloneness and the sound of its gloominess takes me to an alien world from where I can never return. The sound of this silence is so audible to my deaf ears that I can no more hear the shouts of the past and I dig more into the hollowness of nothingness. The resonance of my breathing wakes me up from my silence and I regret this act of respiration that keeps me alive.

To all of you.. Have you ever experienced someone walking outta ur Life without saying a word…?? Does it hurt more?? Or explaining and leaving with mutual understanding hurts more?? I guess the former one..  Even if you wish to walk out of someone’s Lyf.. Pls make the person understand and then leave.. coz u might just walk away and not turn back.. and when u turn back u myt have lost the person forever..!!  And understand the storm of questions and answers that person undergoes… just coz u walked away.. If u can explain ur good-bye nothing better than that…Walk away.. Move on.. coz u have all d ryts.. But leave an explanation and pacify a heart, a mind and a soul and then leap forward..!! 

For Once, I disagree with Shakespeare as he said “Parting is such a Sweet Sorrow…!!”… No its not… Especially when the Good-byes are not explained… It makes a person hollow and traumatized and he/she wastes their lifetime finding all the possible answers..!!

Yaa.. When a relationship requires an approval of 2 people to get built than while breaking and walking why only 1 decides??? And that too he/she thinks that its better for both??? How??? What if the other ones does not need that "better" stuff.. but wants those Best Memroies... Think about it...!! 

December - A Month of _______?

Aha…!! The Month of December is here… The Baby Pink Chilly Weather is in…. And the fog, as my other article says its calm n serene, has begun to make it presence felt every morning…!!

I was just sitting on the swing.. watching things around me on today’s early foggy morning… And I just thought … What does Month of December mean to all of us???

My Mom said- “Working Out in Chilled Weather”….

My Dad said-“ The falling of leaves n the great autumnal colours”…

My Diaper Friend Aashaka said – “Parties” *wink-wink*…..

Few kids in my Society said – “Santa Claus”…

1 of My Students said – “Marriages”…

Other said – “Birthdays”…

My Mentor said – “Wishes”…..!!

There are soooo many diverse perceptions about this one month I wonder… aah! - “DECEMBER”  

A month where the days are Short n Sunny.. and Nights r Long n Loveable….

A month that means a lot more than Parties, Boozing, Dancing, Working Out, Autumn, Santa Claus, Marriages, Birthdays, Celebrations and Wishes…!!

This is a month of Learning, of Love, of Leaping Forward, of Joy, Of Loneliness, Of Commitment..  A month that exhibits ‘n’ number of Emotions…

It’s a month to Learn .. That as the year is ending.. our worries, tensions, grudges, and tears should end their itself and we must start afresh in the new year..with new commitments…to our ownselves first… Just Lyk The Trees that Shed their Leaves in this Season… Same way we must also Shed all our Negative thoughts here itself…

It’s a month of Love… Who doesn’t like cuddling up with ur loved ones on the winter mornings/night.. May it be ur husband, wife, boyfriend, girl friend, friends, parents, kids, students, etc… A cuddly teddy bear hug in the chilling weather gives warmth n affection that has no match with any another emotion…

It’s a month of Leaping Forward… Complete ur old ventures loyally.. and Start New Ventures with More Zest n Zeal.. and promise urself.. and make a Resolution.. U will believe in Urself..

It’s a month of Joy.. The lil joy that u see on the face of innocent kids…when they put in their heart and soul to best decorate their Christmas tree… So that the Santa grants them their wishes… The innocent smiles they have on their faces.. and the way they get excited on getting their wishes fulfilled.. Nothing matches the child’s innocent happiness that he/she gets from such small small things…Not only kids.. Even the adults too believe in this Imaginary Friend of theirs..

It’s a month of Loneliness…  The tears that soak the fluffy pillow… coz the pillow besides it is vacant … on this cuddly nites…  Nothing worse than that… If u want u can try, Winter evenings n Nites will be the most loneliest if u have lost ur loved ones…  U ofcourse miss them time to time.. But still winter evenings n nites the amplitude of missing ur loved ones will reach heights..!! *mark it*

It’s a month of Commitment – Remember how the kiddos write letter to Santa Claus, with address of North Pole, explaining Santa that how good they had been all through the year and commit that they will be the same next year too…So that Santa grants them whateva they have written in their wishlist…!! Let the kids be.. even we-adults do make commitments and resolutions by the end of this month.. and start planning about it..!!

It’s a month where holding hands, watching clear star studded night means a lot..

It’s a month where long morning walks in the cool sweat-shirts means a lot…

It’s a month where the person who plays the role of Santa at malls n streets  earns his bread n butter … Dances to random tunes.. hiding his tears… so that the kids n adults stay happy.. No matter how cold the weather is… He greets everyone with his warm hugs n brings smiles… *HO-HO-HO*

It’s a month..where people just commit to each other so that they can get to attend Dance Party, the passes of which Strictly say – “only Couples allowed”

It’s a month where even if u sleep for 5 mins after dismissing the alarm in the mobile.. it turns outta be an hour magically…

It's a month of holidays for few..who r lucky enough to get Christmas Vacation...!! (*m not..and even if i got I prefer to work...*)

It’s a month of snow clad mountains, candles, stars, candies, ribbons, stockings, and beautiful colors of reds, greens and whites… Not to forget autumnal colours too…. The maple tree leaves…aah…!! (*not at all thinking of srk playing violin amidst of it*… LOL)

It’s a month where u get best fruits n veggies in ur diet…

It’s a month of angels, fairies, snowman,  santa… all of them come down together…  to fulfill our wishes.. in their own ways…

That reminds me…Let the kids be.. But to all the adults…  

Did you prepare your wish-list?? Do you expect gifts in ur stockings??? Are you going to where Red And/Or White on that Day?? Are you going to be Excited n Happy??? Or it wud be just lyk any other day?? If not … Lets do it this year…!!

We can not explain Santa that we were good kids this year and will be same next year..But we can surely promise ourselves that we will believe in ourselves, bring smiles,luv n cares to our loved ones .. and stay positive…!! 

We do not Expect gifts from Santa in our Stockings.. But how about gifting a small thing to a Friend, Parents, A Mentor or  a Kid.. Or may be the Santa at the Mall itself..??? How about bringing happiness on their faces???...  They say time n smiles are the best gifts u can give some1… So go… Give time to ur loved ones and bring smiles to them and to urself as well..

Stay Happy n Keep Smiling…!! Yaaa.. it’s a Month of Smiles n Togetherness too… 

Growing old is natural.. But Growing Up is a Choice…And so is losing Innocence…  Stay Innocent for a Day.. Neva let the Child inside U die --on this particular day atleast….!! .. It’s a Month U can Relive ur Childhood Again.. Go for it..!!

Go.. Grab a Pencil.. Paper.. and Jot Down ur Wish List with Ur Cuppa Coffee in this Month of Wishes….!! 

Me all ready to Prepare Mine.. With the Cup of Orange Hazelnut Coffee…  *best thing ever*... Lets Celebrate this Month of Wishes, Smiles n Togetherness - Welcome December with Open Arms...!

P.S. - May I know any1 of the wishes on ur Secret Wish List??? (if its not that secret…)

"Tags"

P.S. - After back to back "SENTIMENTAL" articles... Time for Some Light-Hearted Talk...That Can Bring a Smile... !! ☺☺

These Days It Seems a Trend to Tag Someone Instantly Like.....:

If I Speak Too Much, I am 'Chatter-box'
If I Don't Speak, I am an 'Introvert'
If I Cry, I am 'Melodramatic'
If I Laugh, I am a 'Clown'
If I Eat, I am a 'Foodie'
If I Don't, I am 'On Diet'
If I Appreciate, I am 'Flirt'
If I Don't, I am a 'Critic'
If I Stand for Truth, I am 'Rebellious'
If I Don't, I am a 'Loser'
If I Read, I am a 'Nerd'
If I Don't, I am 'Time-waster'
If I Go out with Friends, I am 'Outgoing'
If I Stay at Home, I am 'Frog in the Well'
If I Love Someone, They Take it as 'Buttering'
If I Get Mad, They Take it as 'Attitude'
If I Do Make-Up, I am 'Glamorous'
If I Don't, I am 'Bhenji-Types'
If I Party, I am 'Party-Animal'
If I Be by myself, I am 'Anti-Social'

And the List Goes On....!! No matter what u do... People are always gonna 'Tag' U for whateva u Speak and Whateva u do... 

So Don't get Upset.. Just Chill.. Take Deep Breathe.. and Be Urself....☺☺ 

Do what u Like.. Live how u want... Don't be Victim of others' Opinions... Be Ur Own Judge...!!

Take Every Single Comment Lightly... When Life Gives U Hundreds of Reasons to Cry..Show Life that  U have Millions of Reasons to Smile.... ☺☺☺☺

Smile.. Coz Life is Beautiful...  And be Happy that People 'Tag' u coz U r worth-something  ☺☺

Life is Easier when Everything is Taken as a Humour...!! Go for it.. Be confident... Hold ur Head High..!! and Just Live as Per Ur Rules... and Conquer the World...!! ☺☺

Grab a Cuppa Coffee.. And Dance to ur Own Tunes... Sing ur Own Song.. Paint ur Own Picture.. Love Urself for What U are.. Celebrate Urself for Being 'U'....!! ☺☺

P.S. - Yes.. U can Shrug ur Shoulders n Say... "Mein Apni Favourite Hoon...!! Koi Doubt Mat Rakhiyo....!! "... LOL

From a Tiny Daughter to a Mother.. Create Life Within Life

P.S. – "This letter is from every ‘Girl Child’ who has been abandoned  when she’s just born or left on roads by a Mother.. Just coz she’s a ‘GIRL’... Mother in specific.. coz she herself is a ‘female’ and is considered to be a Symbol of Emotions.. and is not expected to do so...!!"

 Dear Maa,

Maa…  A word when a ‘toddler’ speaks for the first time.. a mother’s cheeks turns crimson and her eyes glisten with all the love and pleasure..!!

When I first stepped into this beautiful world (thought at that time) I saw you crying…  Ur lips were smiling.. Ur hands were caressing my body but Ur eyes were full of tears…. Seeing you cried, I also cried… coz I felt my First cry may be was blatant to your ears..  But then I marked with my tiny black sparkling eyes, that behind your tears, there was a weak smile curled at the corner of your lips widening from one ear to another….

I loved you so much at that time.. U were my love at first sight…  May be you loved me too and May be I had chance to Live with you for whole of my Life..!! But I didn’t know that all these manifestation of emotions was aberrant and short-lived.

You wrapped me in a blanket that was so soft, smooth and comfy. You cuddled me and instantly I felt so warm and cozy when you held me in your arms close to your chest hearing all your heart beats to which my pulse was dancing.. And I was sooo very much in love with U coz u took such wonderful care of me and u became my love at first sight.. coz its u who I saw the first time…

And then… All of a sudden, the flow of emotions changed…. U were rushing me to some place walking really briskly… Ur breathe heavy and Ur Heart Pounding Rapidly.. My tiny body somehow felt heavy for your eyes… You wrapped me so tight in blanket, unaware I was suffocating inside..  as if I had to be hidden quickly before any one saw me.. In your eyes, I was as if the yield of the sin that you had committed… You also claimed that the society didn’t accept females those days..  and that’s the reason I should not be with you….

I wanted to hug U and tell U that – “No, I wanna be with U”.. But how could I??.. I was just born naa.. I thought for once u would understand my unexpressed emotions… But u failed.. Admist the pain, I saw you rushing as if time had given you some deadline.. The sky was so dark and the water was pouring so heavily .. Was unable to understand at that time… It was heavily raining and it was a Dark Night…!!

You urself were not much well to balance urself but still you took me to a strange unknown place…   And I was all of a sudden happy that it was the longest ride in my life… A long-drive or A long walk I can say… A Walk To Remember.. in which only u were walking ….rather running … as if participated in a Marathon..! Hence, the Longest Ride of My life (till then) just ended….

Yes..!! It indeed was the longest day in my life which happened to be on the day I was born…!!

When we reached that place.. U placed me on a bench by the roadside … and just walked away… without any explanation and without any good-bye…  But u were kind enough to find a bench that was sheltered so that I was safe… And U kissed my forehead with your soft pink lips and then I could never see u again.. I wanted to scream out ur name and call you back.. I wanted to stand up and spread my arms and hug u and neva let you go.. But I was just born and that’s where my fate was sealed…!! U didn’t even turn back once .. and my eyes kept looking at you till even your shadow disappeared…

May be it was easy for you to walk away, but it wasn’t easy for me to let you go…!!  I was scared … I thought u would come back in sometime.. at least some time later… I was scared to hell and I was shivering .. But only thing I knew at that time was to cry… I wasn’t much talented at that time naa….

You didn’t come that night.. Infact, nobody came that night… That was my first experience with Pangs of Loneliness…  The nature also as if felt my pain.. The sky started to weep to accompany  me and as if giving me the signal that it was there for me…!! If I knew this was the ending, I would neva had hoped for beginning…!!

Since I was tiny… The sound of rain overcame my voice…. My tears were sinking behind the heavy down pour… I cried and cried and cried…

And then I smiled.. A day had just dawned in..and some arms held me.. not sure who’s were they…!!

The longest day n night in my life just ended.... And I was then at some safe and sound place...!!

Maa, if u still thinking about me, pls don’t… Don’t punish urself…  I just wanted to tell you that I had forgiven you long ago.. and a Big Thank You for giving me the very first taste of Love.. Giving my first Warmth.. First Kiss.. First Hug….!! Its only coz u gave me the first Taste of Love that today I am able to Spread Love and Spread Smiles Everywhere..!! I have no hard feelings.. no grudges at all.. And that’s the reason I m so loving.. Coz If I neva held grudges for someone who abandoned me when I was right born and stepped into the world.. how can I have grudges for someone else.. Never..

Maa, I don’t know whether I have the rights to call you that or not, At least I would be able to call you ‘Maa’ here... coz although You had thrown me away from your life but remember I AM a part of you, the part of  you, that you can’t just eliminate  away from your life!!

My existence is coz u were there.. I am having this Life coz u brought me to Life…!! I am really grateful to you…!! Movies, Poets and People have always claimed that The First Love is Unforgettable…

Yes maaa.. U r unforgettable.. And my First Love is only U coz U were the First Person I saw when I was born…!! Thank you for giving me Life…

Your flesh and Blood,

- Ur Tiny Soul…

P.S.-" Its really Unfortunate that even today people are abandoning an infant just coz it’s a Female… 'Please Create a Life within a Life.. Don’t Banish a Life within a Life on the basis of its Gender… ' Coz this is how every infant feels but its helpless to express… it hurts badly till she lives...However, this blog bears NO resemblance to ME…!!"