It was a sunny
Monday afternoon. The girl named ‘Simran’ was not feeling much well. She had
severe body ache as cancer was advancing further. The cool air coming out of
A.C. could not suppress her pain. She felt more and more restless.
However, early morning
she had made up her mind- “Today is an auspicious day and I am going to cook a
sweet dish for my mom any which way. As such mom seems to low since many days….
So may be my cooking a sweet dish for her may light up her mood… may be it will
bring her smile back… I will ignore the pain today and be strong and make her
smile bring back… “
She immediately got
up and asked her cook – “Maharaj.. Please teach me how to cook Suji ka halwa…
Mom loves it and I want to make it..”
Maharaj replied –
“Madam. U please don’t make it. I will make it for you. U just serve her…”
Simran- “Now I want
to make it with my own hands so that she feels good. I will put my all love and
cares in it. It will surely bring her stress level down..”
Maharaj did not
argue after that.
After a while, she
started coughing badly and she vomited blood. She almost fainted. So her nurse
advised her to rest for a while. She immediately went to bed.
But she was too
restless to have a sound sleep. She tossed in bed for a while. Then she woke up
and called up her cook again and asked the recipe again.
The cook explained
her all over again. Then she looked at clock. It was just 3 p.m. – “Mom will
come back at 7 p.m. The cook said it takes 30 mins to cook the halwa. So I
shall start at 6 p.m. Till then what shall I do?”
She was too excited
about it because she had complete faith that she would bring a smile on her
mom’s face with a sweet dish full of sweetness and love. And after that, mom
would have no stress ever.
She tried to divert
her mind and tried to surf the T.V. channels and guess what she was watching.
Cookery channels with an expectation that some channel would show how to make
halwa.
After a while,
again she called up the cook to confirm the recipe of the halwa. The only thing
she wanted to see was a beaming smile on her mom’s face.
She started making
halwa at 6 p.m. sharp with the cook instructing her online over the phone. She
did every step carefully so that she doesn’t make a blunder.
At 7 p.m. the halwa
got ready. She served the halwa beautifully and went to her mom to give it to
her.
As soon as she
entered the room, mom gave a big frown and asked – “U know I am not in right
mood. Yes or no? I don’t want to see anybody as of now. Do u get it or not?”
The girl almost got
tears in her eyes. With moist eyes and cracked voice, she replied – “But mom I
just tried to make your mood by cooking for you.”
The mom got pissed
off more and said – “Is there a compulsion that I am supposed to eat these? Is
there a compulsion that even in this frame of mind, I have to talk to you and
be good to you?”
The girl almost got
shaken up but she managed to stay strong. She thought to herself – “I have not
done anything. Then why is mom being so harsh to me? Have I done a mistake? But
how? I have obeyed every word what she has said. Then why is she so pissed off
with me?”
The girl just
replied – “But mom why r u being harsh to me? I have not done anything wrong.
Have I?”
Mom replied – “If I
am harsh to you, just excuse me. And please don’t piss me off more.”
The girl with moist
eyes just stood up from her room and started to leave. She touched her feet.
But mom didn’t bless her. She hugged her mom to give healing hugs. But the mom
stood still, not reciprocating anything.
The girl went away
with eyes filled with tears and heart burnt.
She didn’t want to piss off her mom.
That night she
cried herself to sleep because she had no one to share her feelings and emotions.
Silently in her
prayers, she just prayed – “Dear God. I am tired of cancer and its treatments.
And I am as such being a burden on others and bothering them. Why do u force me
to be here on earth when I am so unwanted? May be I have hurt mom somewhere
that’s why she is so rude to me. But I have not done anything. I swear God. But
its not her fault. She herself is not in correct frame of mind. Please give me
all her pains but make her stress free so that she becomes cheerful again.”
The next morning the girl was in terrible health and was hospitalized. May be the God answered her
prayers.
P.S. – Many a
times, we ignore others, hurt others, knowingly or unknowingly just because we
are not in correct frame of mind... not
knowing how it would affect them. We don’t even realize what emotional damage
we are giving them by being so harsh. We may be in worst of mood but we should
not let it affect others especially those who care for us and are ready to bear
our all mood swings. And if at all we are upset with opposite person, just
admit it or say it once. That would make the relation easier. If you don’t say
the reason to other person and keep being rude, the other person gets confused.
Neither u r clear that person is at fault or not. Neither that person gets
aware of his or her mistake. Better if u say it once what’s bothering you.
Atleast, that person would apologize if at fault and would justify if not at
fault. But speak out once. So that
things become clear and hearts at peace else there would be unnecessary
disturbances in ur and their lives.
